(I)     FOREVER SHALL I LOVE THEE’’’

                                                                                                    : 11-September-2010

“Sarah!, It sucks when I always go up to the roof of our building and sit alone and there's no one around, with the wind whispering your name to me and hell I remember those moments when God gave me chance to have you in my life and I lost you!!” “Whenever I close my eyes and breathe and darkness is all around me, I feel your absence in my life!! It does hurt a lot but I always tell my heart that I have to live and die with the hope of seeing you someday, may be someday.” “Whenever I stand looking at the dark nights open my arms and close my eyes and the cold breeze touches me gently, I feel your presence all around me and I see you smiling, and we walk through the stars together holding hands.” “I don’t know what’s gonna happen in the future but I’m happy when my tears flow down my eyes and remember you, because it increases more and more of my love for you inside of me.”  “I’ve lost myself and gosh!!, what have I done to myself……!!!  I wish You were here to see how hard it is without you!!! Girl, you’ve changed my life. And I don’t know what would I do now without you in my life!! “God!!!, I wish You knew how much I Love You.” “ I Love You, Sarah.”

“Dreams I had,were all filled with joy and songs of happiness; you hold my hands and look at me as if you were asking me never to leave.  I said as Shakespeare did, “Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day..??? Thou art more lovely and more temperate.!!” and I kissed your hands and promised to protect you forever, to rub your tears whenever you cry, to hold you in my arms forever! And you smiled at me with love in the eyes and I promise my heart to love you forever and ever, even if the world tear me apart into pieces, even if the sky falls down to earth and even if you leave me alone and never look back. And your eyes…,, I kept looking at those black beautiful eyes of yours, fabrics of cashmere….. beautiful are those and pray to God to keep them the way they are. And the moon rose over an open field. Oh! Shall I let myself be caught in your light forever and our love is never ending!!”

…….but when I open my eyes it hurts to realize that you're far far away!!!

And I realize I am not me anymore..................................(to be continued)

(II)  WON’T I GIVE UP, UNTIL THE DAY DEATH TAKES ME’’’

                                                                                                      : 15-October-2010

“And Sarah, I shall wait for you till my breathe takes its last.  And before I give up my last hopes  I shall wait and wait and wait until my eyes grew old and blind with the darkness of the black dusty night of the ages and the burning sun of time. With my disease of lungs that hurts me everyday, shall I suffer myself to death and I don’t want to die before I see you. Suffocations sometimes help me remember how much I love you Sarah and cherish my dreams and desires to be with you. And I can feel you around. All my fears are gone, happiness comes whenever I think of you. My heart had been woeing since long and shall it be the same until the time you realize that I love you more than my soul. And day by day, my love for you increases as the sky’s age grew.”  

“I’d give up everything in this life of mine for you and hell you still don’t know it.  My tear-filled eyes won’t let me cry coz every single tear  that comes down always keep reminding me that my love is growing stronger and stronger day by day and no goddamn person in this world can stop me from loving you more and more everyday, every moment.  This boy will wait for you at the edge of the world and never leave. And no matter even though its hard for me in this life to even make you realize how innocent my love is, Sarah, the whole world will watch me infront of you someday. I hope my love for you remain strong forever and ever!!!”